I remember Sean when we were all young... Sean was my buddy, my friend, my brother... Sean was just a kid when his brother and I started dating...Sean was the closest thing thing to a brother I have ever had. He was my wrestling partner...lol...oh we got in some trouble for that didnt we...didnt matter how much trouble we got in... we never gave up till one of us tapped out!!! I miss you every day...I should have told you, but I didnt think it was appropiate, after all that had happended...I didnt know how to keep you and let him go, at the same time. I AM SO SORRY! Your last words to me, they will haunt me all my life...I should have been there, you were right, I am so sorry...and yes, I was and will alway be your sister, I am so sorry for what I said...I should have told you always...always. What I said was wrong...and I will never be able to put into words how fucking sorry I am for it. You never left my side, you always had my back, ALWAYS, I remember everything Sean..I remember...you were one of the reasons I stuck around as long as I did...family...I loved you and your family so much...then...now...always...I miss you so much, and I choke on the words I didnt say to you every day and I will for the rest of my life. I wasnt there when you needed me...you were right...I am so sorry. I love you and I miss you.